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Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Dear My Lunatics & Readers,


I might not be able to wish all of you on 12 am on the dot. So I'm wishing all my readers a Happy New Year and all the best to come(:

Live life to the fullest(:

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

The Lover Letter of Versions

To Adele Foucher (1821)

My dearest,
When two souls, which have sought each other for,
however long in the throng, have finally found each other
...a union, fiery and pure as they themselves are...
begins on earth and continues forever in heaven.
This union is love, true love,...
a religion, which deifies the loved one,
whose life comes from devotion and passion,
and for which the greatest sacrifices are the sweetest delights.
This is the love which you inspire in me...
Your soul is made to love with the purity and passion of angels;
but perhaps it can only love another angel, in which case I must tremble with apprehension.

Yours forever,
Victor Hugo

So this was what the olden days of how people wrote to their lovers. God, I find it so soulful and romantic that I can't believe a human mind is capable to express such way in words. LOL ;D Okay, so I'm going to try to write a love letter in my own way. HAhaha! I'm just merely bored and trying to think about something else.

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My Version - (pretend I'm guy, I don't know why but it seems easier to write a love letter as a guy)

My love,

My beautiful Rosie, I love you more than you could have know. Even if everything that's beautiful combined in this world cannot be compared to the beauty and possession you hold for me. Trust me, my love, for I am completely lost in the world without you.

The life without you is like waiting for the last leaf to fall; I am deeply sorry to have escape your wings but I assure you, I'll be flying with you again.

Please, I'm begging you, wait for my return. For I shall not breathe another breath if you decided to abandon me. The world would stop spinning and the sun would stop burning. I want to love you like you love me; I want to care for you like you care me. The world would turn into a mighty stranger without your existence.

Believe me, we never get enough of love nor shall we give enough of love. Believe me, the beats of our hearts at the same time reminds me of the love that will never die.

Let me have your heart always, I would never break it I promise. Let me be in your soul forever, for I would not find any soul that could use its lips to not to kiss mine but my soul.

Shane


It's not that good. More of 21st century lost somewhere in the 18th century. Hahaha! But hey, remember, I was just bored, okay? I'm trying hard not to think what will happen when my parents return :/

2+2=15; Think Beyond You Think

Why can't the people I trust most and who I love just accept that I've tried my best? It wasn't as though I didn't want to score with flying colours. I admit my results weren't that good, it's okay. 5 A's and 3 B's, but at least I got A's for the main subjects except for Geography :/

My grandparents and aunt congratulated me even though I kept repeating I did badly and I didn't deserve the amount of credit they gave me. But they put a stop at my mouth, saying what's important I did my best and they said I did great. Thank you guys, you don't know how much that meant to me.

I broke the news to my parents who were in Taiwan. My mum was shocked and furious with my result. I cried silently when she told me how bad my result was and that she can't believe I can do that bad. That was her first line when I broke the news. God, she didn't know how painful I felt and that all I need to hear from her was some support and that she knew I tried my best.

She didn't see it that way.

My dad called up again a few minutes later. He asked me to call the Jabatan Pelajaran Negeri to recheck again. He kept on pressuring me over and over again that in some miracle they forgot to check the folios I did or there were some errors.

I was in such a state, I was ready to breakdown and cry with never ending tears. He kept on babbling on and on but my mind wasn't paying attention to his voice. I felt so pressured and depressed I was ready to yell at him to shut up!

But before this, I dreamed I would get 3 B's for PMR. When I got the slip, I cried and cried. Partly because I can't believe the dream came true! My dreams never came reality to me and it was hard to cope with it.

And I asked silently, 'God. Why this? Why of all dreams, this had to come true? Why?'

My friends calm me down. Sharan was crying though but she did better than me(: All of us didn't get straight A's but the best part was, we all had each other's back. So I really want to thank them. I hope next year we will still be as close as now despite different classes and streams.

When we were eating lunch, I told my grandpa my result. He at first joked "What?! 3 B's?!" I laughed because I knew it was his way of joking. He loves to do jokes. But then, I really needed to know the truth for once, the truth in some way that how I did. You see, my grandpa may be a joker but he has a hypnotic character.

I asked: Grandpa, is my result bad?

He said: Bad? No, of course not. I don't judge by how many A's or B's you get.

I just kept quiet. Cause my mood was still somewhere depressed.

He continued: Why do you ask that?

I said: Daddy and Mummy said my result is bad. Real bad.

He shook his head. "That's where I disagree with your parents. You can't tell people they're bad just because they didn't get straight A's. Let me ask you, 2+2 is how many?"

I said: Four

He said: Wrong. It's 15. Have you heard the guy, Bill Gates? (I nodded) When people said, 2+2 =4 , he objected. He went and created 2+2 = 15. People thought he was crazy but now, he would be an unforgetable man that has changed the minds of technology. You can't always just stick to the same road everyone is going.

I asked: What do you mean?

He said: I know how much you want the 8 A's. But you got to understand, these A's would help you in college and U, but if you can't understand what you're doing, you won't survive in this world in the future. You have to learn to expand your mind, learn beyond the 8 A's, learn that A's would complete your certificate but it would not complete your mind if you just stick to the same thing because everyone is going there.

I said: Expand like how? I'm only a teen

He said: Expand like Gates did. Next time, there would be 2+2 = 24

I just laughed.

He asked: What do you want to be when you grow up? Seriously.

I said without missing a beat: A writer

He said: Go ahead with your dream. Don't let anyone stand in your way. Qamarina, last time your grandpa wasn't a straight A's student. When people got straight A's, 6 A's, I got 3 A's. When I took a course in U, I failed all subjects and only passed one.

I was like, wtf?

He continued: But now, I'm a director who also produces and writes. Back then, people thought I was going to fail in life but now, I prove myself and them that I can do it. Today, I'm higher than other people. Why? Because I never stop in learning and believing, and I never stop thinking the impossible and think beyond I think.

At that, he completely answered my question. At that, I knew I wasn't some girl who just go to school and past time. I am the girl who wants the best in her life. I want to continue pursuing my dream without doubting if that stream would do any good for me. As for my parents, I hope one day I would prove myself to them as my grandpa did.

So now, when people say congrats to me, I accept it gratefully and thanked them because I knew, I did my best. Not everyone is good at everything. Maybe the day would come, when I'm good at something. Now I know why they say, "It's life. Live life to the fullest."

Grandpa, thank you so much. You don't know how much burden you lifted off my shoulders.

I'm okay but not fully okay. Yet ;)

p/s. Yes, I'm entering Art stream next year and am gonna take up Literature in U(:

Monday, December 29, 2008

Goodbye, goodbye 2008. Hello, hello 2009

I'm trying my hardest not to think about anything that would or might happen tomorrow. So I'm just gonna blab something that would drive me insane. LOL;D Thank god, I haven't dream anything about PMR thing again. Phew! or else I bet I'll die.

So on New Year's Day, I'll be celebrating with my grandparents and siblings. Sigh. My parents will only be back on 2nd January. I just hope my mum will not scream the moment she sees my face when she comes back. God, please. I want straight A's. 8 A's!

My grandpa recommended several places to celebrate New Year's Day. But the two main ones are:

KLCC


Mask Party at some hotel

Hmm...Maybe the Mask Party is much more interesting. People wearing masks and you can't identify them. That's something. Hhahaa:D Sigh, I just hope next year will be an awesome year.

2008 is(was) okay. I had the ups and downs but I hope good things will come my way. And, I really want to accomplish the list of things I want which is located at the right side of my blog. C'mon! All I want for New Year is a great life with no regrets(;


PMR S.O.S

ARGHHHH!!! Tomorrow at 10 a.m. sharp all form 3 students will be getting their results. And I'm one of them! Oh God. Oh no. I'm soooo dead. Help me!

Okay. So I have dreamed getting 6 A's only and got B's in Art and Civic which make no sense. But I also dreamed I got a B in Geo! And when I was sitting for the examination, Geo was really hard along with Maths paper 2 and Science paper 2. But I knew I did badly in Geo :/ Damn, I just hope the result slip would show what I want to see.

But whatever the results shows, I would still opt for Art stream. Most of my classmates will be in Science stream. Well, I hope Thira and Sze Yan would be in the same class as me. Or else I'll be the freaky weirdo in class. Sigh. So much changes.

ARGHH! Chatting with Sharan now. She's like ARGHHHHHHH....and GAWDDDDDD. LOL :DD
I feel you, babe. I was like, 'seriously shit' as well

I just really don't know what to do if my results turn out bad. I just don't know :| Sigh. Pray, pray, and pray hard.

GAWD, PLEASE! HELP ME!


Saturday, December 27, 2008

Racism Still Wonders Around Us



After you watched this video, then you only see what I'm writing.

OMG. I can't believe these people actually still exist. They teach their children to hate black people and other races, except whites. This is completely insane & unacceptable!

Okay. Let's just start with the main fact: WHY PEOPLE STILL JUDGE BASED ON COLOURS???

People cannot choose what colours they want to be born with. It's all in God's hands. Still, what does it matter how dark or fair their skins are? Just because they are darker don't mean they are bad or kind. If they are fair, that don't mean they are nicer or rude. Because you CAN'T judge people by their colours or religions; it's what they do, think & attitude you judge them from.

When I watch this video, I couldn't help but get so mad! Teaching their kids to hate blacks, to avoid blacks and to wipe out blacks from their country. Where did the human mind went so wrong and backward?? And he actually ask Tyra Banks to bring all the African-Americans back to Africa. What the hell is this?!

So here. I'm a Malay-Chinese. I'm a Muslim. My parents, who are both different races taught me to never judge people by their skins and religions. Accept them for who they are. Befriending and loving someone whose worlds are totally opposite of you is NOT WRONG and NOT SINFUL. This is HOW PEOPLE SHOULD THINK.

Some people think darker skin people are "badder". It's just an old thinking way that the darker you are, the uglier you are. But look now, come on. We are in the 21st Century. Think like one! Don't repeat the same mistakes that our ancestors had made. We need to learn from the past.

Okay. If some of you still don't agree with me on this. Then, answer me this.

WHY DOES GOD CREATE MANY DIFFERENT COLOURS PEOPLE IN THE WOLRD IF HE KNEW BETTER TO STICK TO ONE COLOUR?

Same goes to the religion. Don't friend or dislike someone because of their religions. We all must learn to accept different beliefs and respect that. If they believe in Jesus, send them a Christmas Card. If they believe in Buddhism, say Gong Xi Fa Chai(;

So yeah, to THAT family above. I don't know who in the right mind would follow your footsteps. So I hope you are really reading this! I look down on you, I disrespect you and you disgust me by the contents of your brain.

People, please bear in mind that this attitude, learning or whatever you wanna call it is UNACCEPTABLE. It's plain RUDE, DISGUSTING and HORRIBLE.

'Never judge a book by its cover'.

p/s. I'm sorry if I was a little too over. I was too pissed off

The Twilight Paradoy

Ina showed me this video. It's very disgusting but...HAHHAHAHAHAA!
LOL. Watch it(;

I Dreamt About...

Last night was the worst dream I ever heard, and weird. It was so weird that I couldn't imagine that I dreamt it. Well, it's kinda hilarious though.

So my first dream was about Obama. Yes, Obama!!! Hahahhaa:D I don't know why but I actually dreamt about him.


I dreamt that he came to my school. My friends were there...but I only remembered seeing Thira clearly. I can't really recall it. But I knew he was there to teach us, more of like, a lecturer. There was a screen and he taught us from there! Hhaha:D And he was there for more than half of a day. Freaky but cool:D

Then, I had the my worst dream that any students who were waiting for their PMR results could have. I dreamt that everyone was in school and then, our results were coming out. They were calling our names one by one.

I saw Weng Hong, Shaun & Arvin(sorry if the names are mispelled, I don't really know) - the top genuises. They of course, scored all A's. I don't remember seeing my friends there. But surprisingly, I saw Marisa, my old friend. But the weird thing was she is studying at an international school now, well, it was a dream but I didn't feel weird seeing her.

When it came to my turn, gawd. I nearly died. I got only 6 A's!!! Argh!!!!
Then, I got 3 B's, huh. B's for Sivic, Art & Geografi. So now I'm scared I'll get B for Geo but I never sat for Sivic & Art papers, so slightly relived. But it was sooo real! That I was glad I woke up.

I remember seeing my mum in my dream. She was utterly dissapointed in me. =/ Gawd, I hope I would never dream such dream again. It's a total nightmare!


Friday, December 26, 2008

Living It Once

It's already 26 Dec. PMR results are out on 30th Dec. Shit! Well it's quite a relief that the results date is known already. I'm so scared and nervous to collect it. On the bright side is that my parents are on holiday in Taiwan and will only be back on 3rd Jan 2009. So my grandma would follow me instead, she never nags or scold me(;

Still, before my parents flew off, my dad happened to read the newspaper on that day and the result day was shown. So my mum called and said, "When you get your result, sms me. If not, I would call." Dammit!

So now, I would say goodbye to all of you if I don't make it :|


Sigh. I never knew being a teenage can be so stressful & sometimes, fearful. Not that I don't enjoy my youth but seriously, UPSR, PMR, SPM, maybe STPM and then A' Levels - O' Levels...more levels and exams. Gawd!

After you finish your U, you have to find a job. After you find a job, it's time for looking a mate. After you marry, you have kids. After you retire, you're old and fragile. Directly, this shows to everyone. Look, this is not based on each and every one of you; it's just what I'm seeing and yes, of course, babbling(;

So most of the time, you're tied up with a routine. But I don't want to be like that. I want something more, you know, challenges and adventures. I hate sticking to something, it's so dull. Do some stupid & risky stuff sometimes but please, watch the risk meter. So now, I can proudly say, "Been there, done that". LOL. It's okay to embarrass yourselves once in a while, at least you would finally experience something ONCE in your lifetime.

So if people say, "C'mon. That's stupid, don't do that." or "It's risky. You might get hurt".
Just say, "I live only once. I might as well use it up."

Cause that's what I always do. Just that, I do without thinking. Hahhahaa.


Thursday, December 25, 2008

Stop Saying Those 3 Words!

Get a life!

Can I ask you why do some people say that? What is so obvious that one particular person doesn't have a life? Since when do you have the right to say that?

Get a life, indirectly, telling that person that what he or she does is useless, wasteful & stupid. That's how I feel and what most people think. Some might take it lightly but not me, cause I can't stand it when people say that. It really insulting, immature, immoral & rude. I don't care if you were not directing to me or I-didn't-ask-you-to-look-at-this, I still see it and it pisses me off!

So what if that person is doing some stupid job that could end his life? So what if that person is SO OBSESS with something that people think he lost his mind? Why do you even question it when you can't even find the reason why he is doing so?

If someone says I'm going to jump down this bridge, of course, you would automatically try to stop him because everyone knows that taking your own life is wrong.
But what if someone says I'm so obsess with Twilight that I 'm gonna watch it 10 times! Are you going to say "Get a life" because of that?

If someone is a Gothic or simply like to dress emo, now, I always hear this. People would say, "Jesus, get a life!" Ugh!! I would automatically defend them even though I don't know them. Look here, those are their bodies, not yours. Those are their styles, not yours. So SHUT UP.

Let me make this clear. Watching or doing something over and over again doesn't indicates that someone has no life. If it makes them happy, let them be. Besides, what part of they do make them so fake? Obsession is just another human being's lust. Nobody can't deny it. Maybe you don't realize it but yes, everyone does.

Fine, fine. It's a free world where eveyrone can do and say what they like. As if. America always says this is a free land. Note: they forgot to add with laws, rules & barriers which all of you most follow no matter what. Criminals get jailed for rape, abuse and robbery.

Well, those get-a-life people would not have to face the law cause in the eyes of the law, that's just plain rude. But in the society world, you would lose your respect as much as I have lost for those of you.

So please, bear in mind. Those people who keeps saying that, STOP! You should be ashame for being such a fool.

Everyone has a life. They are just, different from yours. So please respect that.

Thank you.

Cartoons Which Laugh

I was looking through the channels on the TV and realize how boring they were airing. Totally Spies, Ben 10, Kim Possible...these are NOT cartoons - as in the meaning of cartoon anyway. These cartoons in this century are all thinking type. Like, you have to use your brain to think and understand as they speak.

C'mon! Where did all the black & white, mute cartoons went? The ones we used to laugh even though we can't hear but see through their action. Those were the good old days where people can sit in front of the TV for hours without get bored. Now, every few minutes, the channel would change.

These are the TRUE cartoons/shows. No matter how old they are, they never fail to give tons of laughter :D

The Adams Family


Courage the Cowardly Dog


Fairy Odd Parents


Spongebob Square Pants


30th Dec equals Dooms Day







ME!!!

- amin -

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

The Lads of God

Today is Christmas's Eve! My dad had baked some chocolate rolls for tonight's dinner. Anyway, I'm not here for babbling about Christmas. I think I'm gonna babble about my love - Westlife(:



Okay. So basically they aren't like the young group. They are what most people say 'Old Group' as in maybe our mothers only hear them. Shut up! I love them! Get that straight. I get really defensive & piss when people criticize them just because they are 'old', as if, and saying that their music is too slow. Well maybe it's just because people's taste in music are different. So sit back and shut up if you don't have anything nice to say.

They were formed some years back, I should be six years old that time I think. I began listening to them when I was eight or nine. Maybe younger. Simon Cowell is the man who advice them or a better word, tell them which song has to be sung. Even I was surprised that Simon Cowell actually helps and manage a boy band.

Actually before this, Westlife had 5 members. Some years back, Bryan left the group. I heard news that Westlife had a hard time but they eventually regroup and stayed strong. Phew!



Currently, Westlife is UK's one of the most successful and famous band. Their albums never failed to get the number ONE spot in UK's billboard except one time - that's only once! Now, they might the next legendary group after ABBA!! They have one more hit in the number ONE spot to beat Elvis Presley!! Goo WESTLIFE!

So you see, they don't have to be like those rock bands or Chris Brown in order to be number one. They just have to sing the songs that are them, eventually people who feels they way they do, like me(: would love them. You should really listen to their songs. They are incredible!

You have to know the lyrics in order to understand wha t they're trying to say. Believe me, if you're a sensitive one, some songs can make you cry. If you're a strong one, you try hard not to cry. The most favourite song for me is Unbreakable. Listen to it! It's beautiful and heart soul.

Til then, I am a forever Westlife MEGA SUPER DUPER fan!
I love you, Westlife
p/s. the guy I like is, Shane Filan, the one with the green eyes(;



Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Yes Man! No Man!


Yes Man! Hahaha. The movie is hilarious. It's kinda like partly Mr Bean and partly Epic movie type. But starting was like, funny...but when they get to the middle part, gawd, GROSS! What worse was that my whole family was there including my innocent lil bro who had no idea what just happened.




But overall, it's an okay movie. Not that funny but if you're some maniac who laughs at just about everything, you gotta watch it. I like the part when he totally forgotten he was still speaking Korean to his friend's fiance and about the fact he met an Iranian lady online. Haha:D Stupid but entertaining.



After the movie, people were still laughing. A bunch of guys were still giggling. Yes, they GIGGLED! hahaa:D But before that, while the movie was still running, there was a really funny part and everyone burst into laughter. Then suddenly, a woman on the opposite me snorted and choked. I bet it was either her drink or popcorn.

I laughed harder! Ahahhaa! Then someone beside her snorted also but also asked if she was fine. But seriously, it was so funny the sound. Whatever.

Happy, uh, Sad gonna-be New Year

Tomorrow is Christmas's eve. The following day is Christmas! Yay! I can't wait to open my present/presents. Thank God one of my aunt is Christian. But we don't celebrate it big, just a small one with a fake Christmas tree and presents underneath it. Not that I actually care as long I get my present. LOL :D



Anyway, my siblings and I would spending Christmas and New Year's day with my aunties and uncle and grandparents(my mum's side) since my parents would be holidaying in Taiwan with my other uncle and aunt. They would only return home on 3rd Jan. Sigh.

So I would be stuck at my aunt house in PJ starting tomorrow onwards til 3rd Jan. Then, on the 3rd, my sis and I along with my grandma(my dad's side) would be watching Mamma Mia! The Musical! Yipeee!!! I can't believe my grandma actually bought the tickets. Well the price was really expensive but seeing how desperate my sis and I were, she called up one day and broke the news. I love you so much, Mak Tok! Argh! That reminds me...PMR results! C'mon. Spit it out. When is it going to be release? I have been having restless nights. God, help me.

Monday, December 22, 2008

No, no. Say Portugese

Basically I went to Sunway Pyramid with my family. We ate at some chepskate restaurant, LOL. Then, my mum did her shopping. Grunts.

You can't believe how long can she shops! It's like she can go back to the same place without getting bored. So the last stop was L'O citanne...erm I can't really spell it. But who cares.

So then, I was sitting outside the shop with my sis. My dad and bro were sitting further upside. We were chatting empty talks when two chinese ladies approached us since we were like youngsters. Cough* I think.

She started off like, "You have a minute?" I just stared at her so she took it as a yes.
Then she started babbling about the importance of Christmas & Jesus Christ. She was spilling all out without a full stop. Then she handed me a postcard.

"Do you know Jesus Christ?" she asked at one point. "And what is Christmas all about?"

It didn't matter cause she just continued without needing my answer. Then I look at the card, it said for non muslims only. My sis saw that too. No wonder neither of us could understand whatever crap she was saying.

"Is this for non-muslims?" I finally spoke.

"Urm, yes."

I smiled. "We're muslims."

Both of them looked at me. && FYI, I was dressed like some punk chick. Black min skirt, black leggy, black sleevless top...I actually looked pretty emo.

"Are you Malaysians?" they asked.

"Yes."

They looked again. "I'm a Malay - Chinese." I answered.

They went like OooHH....but their faces were like not going to buy it. Ah, fuck it.

My mum came to know. She baffled at my answer, "Why didn't you just say you're a Portugese?"

Portugese eh? I didn't know I was that hideous. Hah!

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Westlife Lunatic



Ain't it cute(: Shan can't wake up! LOL

Awwww....so CUTE! Hahhaa:D




AHA! They can cook!

Thursday, December 18, 2008

My Juice Box




I finally realize why my mum says 'Close your mouth at all time'.
I mean, look at this! C'mon, it's a total embarrassment. It's as though signalling some flies to zoom in & have a slumber-in-the-human-cave signal.



This is an animal torture! Well not that I care cause my uncle dyed his poodle in rainbow colours(: Haha:D I find this rather stupid & immature.
Whatever.
Just be thankful that the dog actually obliged to model for us.



The cat says:
I'm coming...I'm coming...
Here I com- Uff!!!
Damn, I should trusted my sixth sense. Hey, I'm actually sticking on the wall!
Yeah, take the pic of me, I'm gonna show it to my grandchildren one day on how I earned the name of Flying-then-Stick-On Cat



You had a bad day, You take it one down,
You sing a rockin' song, to flush it down
Say you don't mind, it happens all the time,
Work it all day, to earn the night.

I was bored, okay??!

Woot Woot



sigh. I love him <3

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Dear Santa, All I want for Christmas

I'm like so bored. All of my friends are off the line. I just finished watching Ghost Whisperer all 3 seasons, waiting for the season 4 CDs. Sigh. Anyway, I was imagining Edward in that Twilight before Christmas at Juice Box. Man, he's sure is gay.

I like the part when he said, "Everything about me invites you in...my beard, my belly, my red suit..." Haha:D HAHAHAHA!!! Gross yet hilarious. Dimlight was soooo bloddy stupid!

My list of Christmas Wishes:

1. A guy like Edward Cullen

2. Maybe Edward Cullen himself will do

3. Be on the day President Bush was terrorize with a pair of shoes

4. Having the power to pick teachers in school (u know what I mean)

5. Wanna act in Pirates of the Carribean, Twilight, Harry Potter & THE JUICE BOX

6. I want to be Lindsay Lohan for a day to feel what is like to be part girl & a lesbo

7. My tongue is able to touch the tip of my nose

8. I can jump and fall without breaking my bones

9. Chocolate...including Hagen Daaz choc chip (:

10. Experience all four seasons (I left spring -- one more!)

11. Able to read people's minds & have supernatural powers like in the Covenant

12. Can speak Spanish, Irish & Danish

13. Black Forest Choc & Delifrance Beef Lasagna!

Monday, December 15, 2008

The Dead Who Loves

The river of spring calls your name,
over and over like a milky way.
I called you over the way I do,
through shattering pieces that I could bear.

For I have known, for what you said,
there is no happily ever after,
for love stories never end.
Here I am, flowing tears,
were they just stories to lie a love?

The eyes I have once known,
shone back at me as though seeing past me.
The lips I have once touched,
seemed to lost its magic of touch want.
I stared back,
the deep down end for I have knew.

So I kissed you goodnight,
just like every other nights,
where I would curl up in my chain of love.
Except this time,
I stood by you, fighting back tears
as I watch you embraced the replacement for me.

Friday, December 12, 2008

Horrible Hairs Must Be Fix

Yeah, I fin'ly restyle my hair!! Hahha:DD I guess the reason I'm kinda excited it's because it' been nearly 3 years I have kept the same hair style. Phew!

Speaking of hairstyle, I really wish Robert Pattinson would do something about his hair. E.g. -


The Bad Hair




The Much Better Hair




Really, if my guy was like Robert with the Bad Hair, I would never touch his hair...or even go out with him! My first sight in guys are with fabulous hair...&& good smell.

So yeah, I really wish that Robert would fix his hair in the those Much Better Hair's pics(:

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Gay Hot Dudes

Today I went to Ampang Point. I was with my grandma and sister eating at Delifrance. Then my grandma went off to buy her clothes. We waited for her. Then right before my eyes two hot mat sallehs entered a camera shop. Hagahaga...They were wearing uniforms, still schooling, I think. One of them reminded me of Prince Harry.

I just kept on stealing glances at them even my sis thought they were hot. Pfft. C'mon. How often do you get to sit down, eating your lasagna and having hot guys standing a few feet away from you. It's a true blessing.

So then, my grandma came back. I had to go upstairs to get my laptop that was for service. The Hot Guys were about to leave anyway. I went up one floor and came down back. As I was turning into the corner, guess who? Yeap. Them.

I bumped into them. Like two more steps and I'll be face flat. They were like mumbling sorry but I was dazzled! Hahaha:DD I thought I might faint but I quickly walked away. Then they took the elevator down.

Then I sat down and recalled back. That guys were standing and looking at something. I nearly laughed out loud. Guess what?

They were looking through a beauty saloon for women who do facials & stuff. Rory was like I knew something must go wrong. Gay.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

History 'Breaking' of Mine

I am always the wild and troublemaker in the family or so I am claimed. I always do the stupid stunts. Above was what I had in mind. But as far as I achieved was jumping and falling.
I broke my first bone when I was 5 years old. I was jumping on the sofa and landed on the edge of the table. Resulting a broken nose.

This is not my X-ray but it's close. I broke my second bone, my toe, at the age of 9. I was jumping on the bed and fell off.

This is not mine either but it was exactly like this when I broke my third bone at the age of 11. I was running and trip over a drain, breaking my left foot. In the end, my 'foot' was all filled with artworks especially from my father who taught it was a good lesson for me to start acting like a decent girl.

Then, I broke my chin when I was cycling at the age of 14. I lost control of my bike and fell into a big drain. I didn't really fell to the end because my chin landed on the edge of the drain which partly saved me from more broken bones but ended up with a disfigured jaw for a few months.



My parents were like if you can't stop breaking bones, you might just end up like that (up). They were furious because I can't be a decent young lady like my younger sister who always have everything organized and always out of trouble. My dad was rather frustrated because I beaten his record of injury. Pfft. Encouragement konon.
I am trying my best to stop breaking myself anymore further. But if you really know me, that's impossible. Just praying but still I want to do some more risky acts.
Next I wanna do sky diving, if only my parents would let.

The Living of Rasputia

I'm watching Norbit on HBO now. Haha it's so stupidly funny.
But it still ended up as the worst movie but I thought it was rather good for the actor to play 3 roles.
But one thing though...if I was a man and I had a wife like that (above), the first thing I'll do is....
RUN FOR MY LIFE!!!!

Seriously it's better than getting squash every single night.

Crocker the Lady


This is Chris Crocker. I'm not attracted to him but I think he's pretty cool. You should check out his videos in YouTube - they are silly and hilarious. But the dancing was disgusting...ugh.
Anyway, he's like a huge fan of Britney Spears. A Mega Huge Fan! He actually had a video personally for Britney, telling the world to leave Britney alone. He is one pretty darn good actor.
Another thing, his hair is amazingly flippy. Haha:D Watch a video on him flipping his hair. It's hilarious. You flip, flip .... and flip!!! But I do envy his hair, it's so silky long, way better than mine. Pfft!
I really do want a gay for a best friend. To have a guy who can talk about the same stuff. I think it's really cool. Nothing embarrassing at all.

Monday, December 8, 2008

Language For The Weirdos



It's really nothing. I was bored. 

When I saw this, I was like 'oh fin'ly! Someone speaks my language!'

I know, I don't understand what I'm saying either

Just appreciate the art for weirdos(=

Differences is Acceptable

I really don't know what to do right now. So I'll just blog and please, this might drain your brain upside down cause I'll be babbling unimportant stuff.

So I'm using my grandpa's laptop since mine is already kantoi. Pfft. I'm chatting with Rory which is good cause she and  I are having some really smokin' arse gossip. Lol :DD Anyway it's something that we've been at it quite a while since we started blogging. 

I'm in youtube watching Chris Crocker. He's a really cool guy...girl or gay, whatever you want to call him. He's gay, dressed as a woman but he still keeps his sexual male organs, and please be open minded. I hate it when people get all excited when this topic is brought up.

This Chris Crocker is a very very cool guy which most of my friends agreed. He has his own ground, pride, dignity, bravery & fashion. That's why I salute him. He's been reportedly been bullied - as in people find him disgusting and so on, I pity him.

It's a free country where he comes from unlike here - if you compare Malaysia and the US, you get what I mean. 

Have you read the recent ban on yoga and tomboys? This is ridiculous. From my point of view, you can't stop people from doing things they want if their hearts are already set at their own places. It's like asking a girl to marry a man she doesn't love whereas her heart belongs to another man. Eventually nothing works out. And I believe yoga doesn't make Muslims break their faiths in their own religion. If that's the case, they should ban smoking and those revealing their bodies parts clothing.

Make sense

Saturday, December 6, 2008

Things I Want Badly

- to see Edward Cullen appear by my bed side


- meeting Westlife


- to meet my Romeo


- able to walk in space


- having Fairy Odd Parents


- time machine


- supernatural powers


- travel the whole world


- meet Manchester United players


- rich, fame, glory. LOL

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Ding Dang, December is Here

The internet here sucks. I wish my dad would just install Streamyx...that why I don't have to steal my neighbour's wireless. He just nod and said yes yet nothing is done. Typical dad of mine, always leave things hanging.


The holiday is so boring...I'm stuck in the house for 24/7 :( I want to go down to Ampang, I really miss my old place. Nothing's changed. My grandparents are down there and would be fetching my sis and I to stay ovr a few nights. Yeah! I'm so sick of this too green Shah Alam. I missed the night lights, sounds of traffic & the variety of shopping.


I really don't know what to do now. Sigh* Watching Hallmark, can't give a crap what show is on air. Yawn. Bo-ring.


I want to do something but I just don't know what to do!
Ugh!

Friday, November 28, 2008

Here We Go Again

I'm just babbling at the moment. Really bored. I'm chatting with Sharanya and Rory. Rory had went to KLCC and she's going back tomorrow to find more Rory-s (it's an inside joke).


I doubt there would be any HOT rory-s after that day at OU. Some parts were really embarrassing but we all made it through alive! Sigh. I really hope we would get to see a night movie, there's more Rory-s.


So Sze Yan had done a trailer for Scraps to Wembley. Check it out. It's really cool! Sharanya, Gabriel is so much hotter than Jacob. Haha;DD


Whoa. Now I really love the song Super Massive Blackhole & Time is Running Out. These songs are just so cool!!!


Okay. I'm busy back. Googling pics for Sabine & Vampires=)
Yes, I kinda adore Vampires=))

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Twilight Fever - Still HIgh Of It


Ina, Sharanya, Alliya, Sze Yan and I watched Twilight today! ARHHH!!!!
Hahaha LOL ;DD
The movie was great. Edward wasn't so good looking at first but he got his ground when he was flying at the trees and when he wore the thick blue jacket. It was ah-mazing!!!
But I was disappointed that they edited and cut many scenes. They changed the plot, the places and time. I wished they followed the book if not it wouldn't have ended so fast! I am still truly disappointed. But whatever, it was still nice.
They missed a lot of Edward's quotes!!! UGHHH!!!!
I was so looking forward for his lovable quotes. And they missed the part he said I LOVE YOU and...god! So many other quotes!!!
Don't get me wrong. I love the movie so much. Edward, Jasper, Carlisle....were freaking hot!!! Jasper was WOOT WOOT. Carlisle was OH MY GAWD!!! I didn't expect him to be that HOT!!!
Jacob looks really ugly in the long hair. Sorry, sharanya.
I hope New Moon, they won't cut and edit because I love and want the original story. Stephenie Meyer's original plot, not like Twilight which really disappointed me. The people in the cinema were also sighing in disappointment.....but in the end, it's Twilight=)
EDWARD, JASPER, CARLISLE - CULLENS,
Alice was pretty(:

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

YEAYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAHHHHHHH!!!!
YEEAAAYYY!!!!!
I'M GONNA WATCH TWILIGHT ON 27 NOV
WITH MY CRAZY FRIENDS=)
YIPEEEEE!!!!!
HIGH FIVE, THE STALKERS

Twilight. OMG, I still can't get over it!

I still so can't freaking believe I'm gonna watch Twilight on its first day of release! It's - argh!!!! Grrr, I still can't wait.
At first, Alliya went online but it said all fully booked. We were all so angry! Then, I suggested my mum is going to One U tomorrow so then, she will buy for us. But knowing us, obsess teens of Twilight & Edward, we didn't feel safe. Konon. So, Alliya called for phone reservation although we were pretty sure we would be ending up disappointed as usual.
Amazingly, she got through!!! She claimed it was a robot speaking device, of course I believed her. LOL. Still, we weren't at ease. My parents kept on saying it's already confirmed, now would you please calm down before you get hysteria?
My dad: Have you friend gave the person her number?
I said: It was a robot.
My dad: Whatever. Robot. Human. Vampire. Did she?
I said: Yes. She gave.
My dad: Did that thing said yes?
I said: Ermm, wait! I don't know -
My dad: She gave the number so it's confirmed! Just collect the tickets an hour before the movie starts.
I said: Pheww!
My dad: What of movie is this? Making you having sleepless nights.
I said: Edward Cullen
My dad: Who?
I said: Oh! It's that vampire guy. He's so sweet, handsome and -
My dad: Okay, okay. I heard it the first moment you open the book. So
tired of hearing you saying that.
Hahaha:DD
I really pity my dad for needing to hear this day and night. I never stop babbling about Twilight since I knew it was being made into a movie. And I neevr stop babbling my love for Edward Cullen the moment I read the book. My mum thinks I'm overreacting...hmm I wonder how would she react if she was my age, reading this.
I still can't get hold of Sharanya. That girl! Been calling her for times and still won't pick up. She needs to hear the news!
The GREAT GRAND news!!!
I just so bloody can't wait!!! I'm just so HAPPY!!! :DDDDD
TWILIGHT, here we cooomeeeee!!!!!!!!

Monday, November 24, 2008

My Seek in a Guy

First Post:

Firstly, I don't even know what the heck am I suppose to write. Moreover, how am I going to write this. Hmm. It's easier to speak. But attention, this is my seeking, so don't get offended, okay?

His attitude always catch my attention. Depending on what he does, how he reacts and do stuff could show me what type of person he really is. I would want him to be all the good boy stuff...but please, maintain your status as a man. Don't sway here and there.

If I were to see a guy, I would search for his face first. I would be lying if I say look doesn't count. Look is what makes the ball roll. Everyone's tatse in looks are different. He must be good looking from all angles and handsome, cute...but my friends said I'm more of pretty boys & bad boys.

If I were to see a guy from the back, the first thing I would see is his butt. Haha:D I don't know why but yes, it's true. Then from there, I would judge. Please don't ask how I judge.

Then, I would go onto his eyes and lips. I like guys whose eyes and lips are the highlights of their features. I prefer green eyes and thin, cherry lips. Then, his smile, voice and laughter. That depends on how I look at them.

But I want a guy who is a musician...who plays the guitar or sings. I love musicians guys. I really, really do. It seems romantic to me. LOL:D He must at least know how to sing one of my favourite songs=)

And the Hair!!!
Wash it. Comb it. Groom it.
Make sure it looks proper & nice. And it doesn't smells! The same goes for the ordour. Put on some cologne. I love guys who smell really good. xoxo

He must be funny, sweet, understanding and caring. Lovable. But I usually fall for the bad boys and go after the pretty boys;)) Oh by the way, watch out for you sense of fashion. Cause sometimes it really turns people off by the way you dress.

Yes. I know. Edward Cullen. But he doesn't exist. I just want a guy who has some bits of Edward's affection and love, then I'm totally head over heels. I love a guy who can spill out his feelings...how he feels and thinks without feeling embarrass. He must never forget my birthday at all. A simple plant of kiss will do just fine as long as he remembers=)

Sorry if you have to read this, it must be demanding. LOL.
There's more to come((:

Guys, Don't Get Touchy Over Edward Cullen

Why do guys have to get so touchy when girls say I Love You, Edward Cullen? Guys, it's not because of him but by his quotes and expressing his love for Bella.

Tell me, how many guys have the guts or just spill out how do they really feel for their girls? Trust me, I've been through this. So far I know, NONE. Most of them would be like, 'Hey. I love you.' Fullstop. Where's the rest??? Isn't there anything else you guys feel?

I truly believe that Stephenie Meyer created Edward in such way because she felt a guy should be like him. Not afraid of showing how you truly feel. Mostly, that's what girls wants. We want to hear from guys the truth, not just smoching here and there.
Stop. The. Ego.

So you can the reason why girls are comparing right now. Tell me, if every guy was like Edward, do you even think we would compare? If every guy knows how to treat a girl right, do you think we would want nobody else but Edward?

Puh - leze, you've seen reports girls committed suicide because of her boyfriend this....her husband that. So guys, don't get so touchy here, okay?

It's merely what Girls Think Every Guy Should Be because we all know that particular guy never exist, never had and never will.

Strong Supporter of Edward Cullen & Stephenie Meyer,

QM(=

Westlife, the Best Band



Kian, Shane, Nicky, Mark



These guys totally rock my world. They are 10 years old in the Westlife band today. Happy Birthday Westlife!!! (=


I began to like Westlife when my mum gave me their first CD, I think I was only six that time. Being still fresh & innocent, I loved them from the first moment their voices poured out from the speakers. Truth is they are the best singers I've ever heard until now. I could recognize their voices without even need to look at them. Their voices are the only ones in this entire universe. But Mark's voice has the melting chocolate voice (LOL) that it is the most beautiful voice in the world.


For one thing, they are Irish. And I love Irish guys, I don't know why. From my perspective, they have some really sexy accent, names and looks. I love Shane Filan from Westlife. One, he has Green eyes. Two, he's the most handsome one. Three, he has an amazing smile. Sadly, he's married and has a daughter)= Oh, whatever. He's still mine!!!


People who first met me, asked, 'So who's your favourite singer or band?'

'Westlife.' I said.

Then, they would stare at each other, eyes popping out, jaw hanging down. Like, they couldn't believe what they've just heard. Don't believe me? Ask Sharanya and Ina. They were there when that happened. Sharanya claimed that her mind was all 'cricket singing' when I mentioned Westlife. But now, it's all good, they accepted that I'm a bit old fashioned, Haha:D


But their songs are truly amazing if you just listen to the lyrics carefully. Read it and then, you'll know why. That's also if you are the type who love lyrics then music, and not the other way around.



Where, where. Where could They be?

I'm not doing anything important at the moment. Just googling some hot male models at the moment, I'm bored. Like I said, Hot Guys are never boring(=
So if you are reading this, I'm sorry cause I'm just babbling some stupid, boring stuff. Still, I'm finding a really HOT male model but it seems pretty hard. Hmm...
Yes, I'm counting down the days to Twilight! Haha:D How many times must I mention this? It seems that I'll never get over it, sigh. I can't focus on anything right now because I'm too eager to watch the movie!
On Twilight Day, my friends and I are going to dress specificly. Although Alliya kept pestering Ina to wear leggy/shorts, it seemed that Ina still stood her ground to be the only normal human in our group on that day. FYI, I'm gonna be the all black from head to toe one, yeah, EMO. Haha, I'm not, I just love black(:
Okay, I'm gonna continue on my search for a Hot Male Model. I'll babble again once I'm done. Haha!
As if I'm ever done with googling for Hot Guys((:

More of Pretty Boy





Ryan Taylor

6 foot 2

Blue Eyes

IMG Model in NY(=


Sunday, November 23, 2008

Hot Guys Addict

I'm going to confess like Rory and Human Curry did. Whenever I see really hot guys, I'll be like holy moly, are they really real? It's like they are too hot, too beautiful to be on this planet. Truth is I'll go all *faints* and *sighs* when I see them. If they happen to be in my neighbourhood, I would stalk them. LOL:DDD

Here's the things of my 'this-guy-dont-exist':

1. Green eyes

2. Dark, dark hair (flat down)

3. Thin, cherry lips

4. Dimples (optional)

5. Musician (singer or guitarist)

6. White & neat teeth

7. Nice laugh

8. No-No Ego

9. Romantic (must know how to speak, not junks)

10. Really needs to understands me cause I can be mentally crazy sometimes=)


I know what I'm seeking is truly insane and impossible but I just like to wonder off and dream on my kind of guy. Haha:D
My friends and I can babble on and on about Hot Guys...but they are like sharan said...rarely Malaysians, haha. There is a never ending conversation of hot-ness of guys.

So yeah, you think there's a guy like I want above?

Show me(:

Vampires the Cause of Chaos



Do Vampires really exist? If they do, who was their creator? If they don't, I wish someone could make one...

If Vampires are real, do they really live on blood to live? Are they really that harmful & dangerous to us?

Then, are they still considered as humans? Would they have the same human emotions and reactions in whatever they do?

According to myths, they would be extremely strong and unbreakable. You mean like superman?

How long can they live? 200? 500? 1,000? Forever?

How do they survive through all these if one day they would be found? I'm sure they would be experimented...even so, will there be a war of Vampires vs. Humans??

If some of them had chose to share a life with humans, is that wrong as it apply to tiger and lion together?


Truth is, I don't even give a damn. If I had a chance, I might convert myself, even though there's no turning back.
I need to go to Rehab