This sucks, honestly.
I'm walking on a thin thread.
The chance is thin, I feel doubtful.
But something ahead pushes me to keep on moving.
I'm scared to continue this thin line,
I'm scared that I'll fall off and there's no cushion to absorb the break.
Then, I'm still determined to go where I feel is right.
what if it turns out I'm chasing after a unicorn?
what if it turns out I'm just waiting for those stars to fall off the sky?
what if there's really NOTHING ahead there?
what if it is because I yearn so much of it,
that I began to imagine things that only my mind plays?
I'm left half blinded, lost in hope and logic.
Nobody said it was going to be black and white,
but nobody said that there'll be no answers.
I'm left in this confused mind, I don't know where to go now.
I feel like I'm replaying back the same scene over and over,
I feel like I'm hoping for something that will never happen.
Should I trust with my feelings?
But it's not easy to ignore it.
In fact, it's one of the reason after it, I'm happy.
But I feel like I'm the one who is making it up,
dreaming about it, wait for it and well,
hope for it.
I feel so PATHETIC <:(
I should be stronger, brush it aside -
but I can't.
I need to learn to get a better grip of myself,
cause it'll never look the same way as I do.
I need to stop these dreams,
cause I need to face reality.
But when I tell this to them,
they say,, 'You're scared to fall but most of all, you're scared of having the scar'.
Should I continue of hoping and waiting for something I feel that'll never happen?
But I can't be stranded here with a grey mind.
But then, it's impossible to let it go.
'Cause I think, it has made up a part of me.