Thursday, December 15, 2011
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Like why babies cry when they're born. Or why people say 'I'm fine' when they're not. I'll never understand how a person can lie for a living while some people are fighting to survive. I'll never understand whether the chicken or the egg comes first but then, does it matter? I'll never understand how some people can say they love you but end up doing all the things that says the complete opposite. I'll never understand why some girls are so into becoming a blondie with blue eyes when they're beautiful just the way they are. I'll never understand how some guys can hurt a girl so many times and still expects her to take him back. I'll never understand the notion of 'what's right for you' cause I honestly think most people are selfish nowadays. I'll never understand how can some people lead others on and just leave them hanging like it's just a sort of game. I'll never understand why do bad things happen to good people. I'll never understand why people end up leaving. I'll never understand hate. I'll never understand love. I'll never understand emotions, feeling and thoughts.
Truth is, I don't think I'll ever understand life.
These whole 'what I'll never understand' things may sound exaggerating to some but these are all the things I'll never understand -- and I don't mean in literal meanings. So maybe these are the things that aren't meant to be understood but even if there are answers to some, I still don't think I'll ever understand.
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Wow, it's been nearly 2 months since I last blogged. Sorry about that. For the past few months, it's all about exams, exams, exams, study, study, study. I swear that A-levels is killin' me :'( However, I'm having 2 weeks of holidays now! So finally, a break for me :|
Friday, July 22, 2011
Finally, I am back to blogging after for so long. There are only 2 reasons: Time and Busy. When you combine both, it produces tiredness and stress. So it had me thinking of what I really want and what I really don't want. I don't want tiredness; I want carefree. I don't want to rush; I want more time.
I've been thinking and these are what I could get from myself:
What I Want
Flowers: They’re so pretty and nice to look at! I’ve always catch myself smiling looking at pretty flowers. Odd? I think so.
Chocolate: I’m one of those girls who choose chocolate over salad any day.
Storybooks: Now that Harry Potter has finally ended (sobs), I need a new fiction adventure to read on. I’ve already flew on broomsticks and been to Hogwarts…..wait, I don’t want Harry Potter to end! :’-(
Faith: I keep losing hope too easily. I need faith to keep my hopes and never let them go. In the world we’re living, I need both of them to live.
What I Don’t Want
Cockroaches: DIE YOU FUGLY ALIEN BEASTS
Parking: I can never park my car properly cause I can’t seem to get into the right parking line!
Cigarettes: Please. Stop smoking.
Vegetables: I don’t mind fruits.
Broken promises: Don’t promise, if you can’t keep it. Don’t promise because you feel you need to. Don’t.
Saturday, July 9, 2011
Friday, July 1, 2011
That’s one thing all of us are pretty much good at it. Or at least, I know I am. I’m talking about denying things, not lying about things. Those two words hold completely different meaning. When I lie, I’m keeping away the truth from others. When I deny, I’m hiding the truth away from myself.
Funny thing is I do realise that whenever it comes down to things that affects me emotionally, I will merely deny (silently) to myself. I come up with endless assumptions, logics and buts’, in attempt to avoid the truth that is written down in black and white in front of me. I keep asking myself ‘why do I keep doing this to myself?’ – the only thing that could come to my mind is: to comfort myself.
Some people find comfort in eating lots of food. I don’t, because I’m already quite fat. Some find comfort in crying themselves to sleep every night. I can’t, my ego won’t let me. Some find comfort in spilling out everything to others. I won’t, I prefer to keep things all to myself.
I know those are rather negative things to be thinking but that is how I am; that is how I view, accept, believe and deny things. When I deny things, usually those that are affecting me emotionally, I will always come out with scenarios that are opposite with it. Apply the logics into work and bait myself into believing the truth that was never there.
That is until today, something happened (a really minor thing) that trigger me to so badly that I eventually slept off for 3 good hours because I was just so tired. I don’t mean the literal meaning of tired by the way.
But I’m all better now.
Back to denying and hopefully, I don’t have to deny anymore.
Thursday, June 23, 2011
I have this habit.
I am constantly searching for something - that I don't even know what it is. Sometimes it feels as though I'm trying to catch the wind but most of the time, I can feel it. This may sound quite like 'wtf is she trying to say here' but honestly, that's what I'm feeling most days.
I feel that something is missing. Whether that something is important or not, I can't exactly determine it. Is it a want or a need? I don't even know. But right to the core, I know that 'something' must be found. A person? An object? A vision? An inspiration? Oh God, this is making me so clueless.
Countless times, I come to a point where I lose my way and my head will filled so many thoughts - sometimes, no thoughts all. Is this a phrase that most 18 years old go through? I wish I knew. Everyone has their own battle with themselves, I just wish I knew what mine is. I find myself battling between my logic and my feelings.
Logic: Yes. No. Black. White.
Feelings: I don't know. Maybe. Should be. Pink. Blue. Orange.
If you get what I mean....
But maybe, there are just some things in life that are not meant to be searched.
Maybe, I just need to wait. And wait. (not too long, please)
Monday, June 13, 2011
We are always craving for something and most of the time; we don't even what we crave for. Are we craving for the mouth watering dessert? Or we craving for the holes in our hearts to be filled?
‘Cause I believe that no matter how much wealth, how much fame, how much things that we have; we're constantly craving for more. I used to crave for the ice-cream man on his motorbike to pass my house when I was a young kid. Now, that ice-cream man no longer passes by - I wonder what happened to him. So, my craving changed. I craved from ice-creams to chocolates; from teddy bears to earrings; from Barney to lipsticks; from colouring books to writing a blog.
Cravings change as times change, as people change, as things change. Little did we actually realise how all of these things change. It could’ve been for the best but there’ll always be a part of me wanting relive that time of what I craved most.
So what do I crave for now? Currently in 2011, I crave for chocolates, vintages, my blackberry, pretty headbands, lasagna, beaches and pretty, floral designs. These are so different from what I craved back in 10 years ago.
Time. What it does to us.
I think I might be craving for an ice-cream now.
Friday, June 10, 2011
1. I think pretty boys are sexy ♥
2. British accents always get my knees wobbling *sigh*
3. I HATE CUCUMBERS.
4. Unless you were raised up in the UK, don’t use that fake accent on me. Fucking hate it.
5. I LOVE CHOCOLATES.
6. Bitchy boys are the worst. (only GIRLS can be that)
7. I’m a diehard Westlife fan.
8. I only write with black ink pens.
9. Obsess with FLORAL prints and design.
10. When I was 5, I used to think singers have only one song.
11. Girls with pretty, long legs are sexy.
12. I can never do maths. Ever.
13. I love History! :’)
14. I want to marry a guy who can cook. Like really cook.
15. If I could be an animal, I would be a horse.
Friday, June 3, 2011
Friday, May 27, 2011
Monday, May 16, 2011
Sunday, May 8, 2011
You like classical music.
You’re short. Probably plump too.
You’re afraid of heights.
You can’t swim.
You think girls should wear sneakers more.
You feel that you don’t need a boyfriend.
You’re tall. Like a giraffe.
You have a pair of big feet.
You can’t sing well.
You can’t do splits or cartwheels.
You don’t have many best friends.
You think iPad 2 is just a thin piece of screen.
You prefer to stay at home during weekend nights.
You don’t have that silky smooth hair.
You can’t play any musical instrument.
You’re not good in Maths.
You’ve never been kissed.
You’ve never been asked out.
You always feel that you’re not good enough.
But you are good enough, for yourself. You’re talented, amazing and beautiful in your own way. You don’t have to define yourself to anybody. Nothing is wrong; things just take time to happen. Sometimes it takes a while; most of the time it happens unexpectedly. So look in the mirror and smile – can’t you see it?
The answer is right below here:
Saturday, April 30, 2011
ADAM LEVINE, Y U SO HOT?!? MARRY ME, PLEASEEEEEEE!!!
Being a kid is wonderful